The beginning..

Our last baby was born in February *** on the 13th of the month.I didn't want her to have to share her birthday with Valentine's day, so I was so glad she came the morning before! After we brought her home, and the following year passed, we decided we were certain our family was complete.I had read research on permanent methods for him as well as myself, and after talking to my doctor, I decided that removing my tubes would be the best route.This could potentially save me, or prolong me, from getting ovarian cancer suggested recent studies.So in May *** I had the procedure and felt relieved to know our family was complete, and we could move forward focusing on that.

It was around this same time that I started to think about how blessed we were.We have three beautiful children, all talented in several ways.They keep us busy and they keep our hearts filled with love.It weighs heavy on my heart to think about the families out there struggling through the pain and heartache of not being about to complete this same dream we had.

I reached out to see if I could donate my eggs, as I knew I would not be using them myself.I was informed I am official "too old".(That hurt to hear LOL).Then through conversations with my husband, I agreed that we would be able and very willing, to provide a baby through surrogacy to the couple who needed and deserved it.However, I am very inexperienced at this.

Due to that inexperience - I think going through an agency would be the most ideal situation.However, with that, part of my vision may not happen.I envision being able to help this couple experience every aspect possible.I want them to be there for the appointments when they can, and see their baby on the ultrasound, and feel their baby moving around in my belly.I certainly want them there in the labor and delivery room; to be able to cut the cord and get that beautiful first skin to skin contact.I would LOVE to be able to find someone here in Arizona would like to meet and chat further to see if they would feel the connection with me.

For now, I will trust that it will all play out and work out as it should.I will move forward with the requirements set forth from the agency, and should someone come to me before I sign the contracts, then THAT is what is meant to be.:)

Blessings to you all!