I love my step daughters, we are very close and get along very well! They have asked me for a baby brother in the past and I just secretly sucked down tears. It breaks my heart to walk thru the store and go by the baby isle and I have to pretend that I didn't even notice it or that I think it's cute but what nobody knows is that I am ginding my teeth, holding down the vomit that comes up when I'm upset, faking that smile, and turning around as quickly as possible so I can wipe those tears and cool my face down so that the redness will fade before anyone sees it. I would give anything to experience the morning sickness and the swollen ankles, the stretch marks and the odd eating habits. Give me the moment when my water breaks and everyone is scurrying around to get you to the hospital and the excitement of knowing what is coming! I'll take he cramps and pain and the epidural....I want to feel it all! I want my husband to grab my hand, rub my head and say "you are doing so good Baby, I'm proud of you" and then I want to blame him for everything and punch him! I want all of those moments but I know that they are not in the cards for me. What I could look forward to is a piece of me and a piece of my husband joining together to create OUR baby, our angel! Then our angel would be safely placed into an amazing carrier who will take the best of care for 9 months for me! I imagine getting the call that it's that time....and I get to meet my precious Angel his/hers eyes look exactly like mine, daddy's hair....Those precious little fingers will wrap around one of my own and at that moment I will know that THIS, RIGHT HERE IS WHAT THE WORLD IS ABOUT! My life would be complete. The hole In my heart would be filled...MAGIC!
Happy, loving, easy going...a natural mommy!
We would be forever grateful to anyone who is willing to make our dreams come true! We do live in New York which has a strict law about not compensating surrogates over *** in the state of NY. As you can imagine the cost of IVF alone for gestational surrogacy is crazy expensive so anyone who is willing to help my family create a life within an affordable amount and makes it possible to make our dreams come true will forever be part of our family and loved. You have no idea how much I value the fact that you are even willing to hold a life inside of you that you did not create. What you are willing to do for my and other families is breathtakingly amazing and you have my utmost respect and admiration! Please contact me if you are interested in getting to know my family! Thank you!