To start, I've always been a very nurturing, maternal person. I love all Life, I love to love, and believe in its infinite, impenetrable power. Without wanting to sugarcoat things, I'll say I didn't have the most loving parents growing up. And I very well could be angry or resentful about the things I should have received from them but didn't, and all the things I missed out on as a child. But instead, my reflections about my own parent's failings have just opened my heart and filled my whole being with compassion for those of you out there who are REALLY up for the task of loving, raising, and enriching a child, and are, through no fault of your own, unable to do so. The way I see it, there's nothing that made my parents worthy of having a child except for nature itself. But what I think really makes a worthy parent is a willingness and dedication to being a secure base for a child to attach to, model, develop, and grow. Being there for them when they fall, and helping them get back up. Every. Single. Time. Being at your wit's end and wanting to just scream and cry to let your frustrations out, but choosing to take a deep breath, shake your head and laugh, and just say "I love you" instead. Because Love may be a feeling, but it's ultimately a choice as well. And for those of you who know this, who are prepared for this, and will feel blessed to experience the challenges you'll inevitably face raising a child… I want to help you do this. One day I'll be ready for a family of my own, and I know today is not that day for me. But it is for others, and for those of you who are at that place in your life I truly want to help out. It would be a BLESSING for me to deliver a child to a loving family to take care of them for the rest of their life. Maybe it doesn't make perfect sense from the outside, but to me this selfless and everlasting gift I am capable of giving to someone would help me rewrite the wrongs that were done to me… To take what was done to me, and turn it into good.
Who am I? Well... I’m a mixed-media artist, a musician (classical violinist and amateur singer), a philosopher (my college major), a designer (my profession), and a newly certified Yogi. I’m a compassionate friend, but can be a bit of a spitfire. I love hard and deep, but can struggle to get close. I’m a work in progress, and, above all, I’m a passionate advocate for the people and things I care about.
Dear potential intended parent(s), First off, I hope this message finds you well! And in many ways I'm guessing you are doing well – you're financially, mentally, and emotionally stable in life and at a place where you're ready to take on the challenge of parenthood. But I know if you're here there is probably an unfulfilled desire in your life – that of a child. If it's been difficult for you to conceive, I am truly sorry to hear of your struggles. In many ways, I think there is nothing more pure, powerful, or prolific than the act of creation and the gift of Life. I firmly believe that anyone who genuinely wants to dedicate themselves to creating, sustaining, and developing life should be able to… And it breaks my heart knowing that many people who want to participate in this process themselves face obstacles that prevent them from doing so. But regardless of how easy or difficult this process has been for you so far, I have nothing but respect, awe, and admiration for the immense care, concern, and compassion you want to put into world by raising a child. And if you're the type of person/ parent I'm imagining, I want to help you do this. I hope to connect, get to know each other, and see if we may be a good fit to go through this crazy, beautiful, life-changing process together! Please don't hesitate to reach out if you have any questions, or think we may be a match! And if you read this far and don't think we'd make a good fit, I just want to wish you the best in your continued search to bring Life into this world. You deserve the blessing of a child as much as anyone, and I truly hope it happens for you soon. Thank you, and stay well! Love and Light, Lana